I turned to scripture tonight after a “discussion” with my almost 15-year-old daughter. All the other kids were in bed, and I had hoped to catch up and reconnect with Erica. Instead, it turned into a big, 30 minute long torture session. Picture lots of eye rolling and me “getting on her case.”
A mild answer calms wrath, but a harsh word stirs up anger. Proverbs 15:1
Yikes, I think we could both stand to think about that one.
I just want her to know I love her, and I know she is growing up and making decisions for herself. Sometimes we have to talk about things! If this is getting on her case, then so be it. Her life is full of really important things to talk about, especially all the bad things out there I hope to protect her from.
Wait a minute, I wrote that I hope to protect her from all the dangerous stuff. We all know that’s impossible, and that’s why being a mom is so hard. The Blessed Mother was told by Simeon at the Temple that a sword would pierce her heart (Luke 2:35). Every mother in the world will be hurt by her children. It may be from a child’s illness or death, or it may be from hurtful words or a bad decision. I imagine by the time my 9 children are grown, my heart will have been pierced and broken hundreds of times.
- Dear Lord, I pray for Erica. I’m so frustrated right now I don’t even know what I’m praying for. Please keep her from the bad things out there, and I pray that she will know I’m trying my best.
- Mother Mary, please wrap your arms around Erica when she’s having a bad day and won’t talk to me about it. Pray for her protection. Be the mother to her that sometimes I can’t be.
- To Erica’s guardian angel, thank you for keeping her safe. Please knock her upside the head if you need to, and please always bring her safely back to Jesus.
- St. Monica, you never stopped praying for your son, St. Augustine, to know Jesus. Please pray for my Erica. She’s a good girl and knows God, but these teenage years are crazy. Sometimes it kind of feels like I’m losing her.
Tonight I am going to stop feeling the burden of protecting my oldest daughter. I’m giving that job to God, who already knows it’s in His job description.